I'm so confused with life right now. A stupid stupid phrase that I thought was out of my vocabulary for good. I HATE being confused, having no focus, basically generally down in the dumps. My life, my future plans, are crumbling all around me and I can't do anything about it. The more I try to fix it, running around at top speed trying to catch and shove the pieces back into their proper places, the faster it falls apart.
All I wish is that I'm under it when it finishes it's decent. A nice long suffocation would feel good right now. Oh and it would be nice if for once I could actually deal with crap the way a normal adult does and not a 14 year old emo kid.