Friday, December 18, 2009
I'll be in AZ tomorrow. Spending the holidays with my family. I wish I was excited about it. Truth is I don't want to go. I don't want to be away from my Hubby. I had this great dinner planned for tonight. I was going to make ham and sweet potato casserole and whatever else looked good at the store. But I didn't get to the store because Hubs car battery died and he's using my car. So instead we are going to spend the last evening together for two weeks shopping for food that will keep him alive.
I was also going to get him some presents. Christmas morning I was going to call him and tell him where I hid them. In an attempt to help him not feel so left out. Now I've got nothing.
I guess I feel guilty. I feel like I shouldn't be able to have fun if he isn't going to.
I'm a planner, I love to be prepared. I very very much dislike being wrong, especially when it comes to my job. I was wrong today and I had to tell a client that. I feel terrible. I feel like a bad wife and a bad business women. *sigh*
What's up with all my pity parties lately?
I think it's a phase. I do things in phases you know. I'll be over the roof happy for a long time and then I'll be sad for two months solid. I'll eat ice cream all day long all year long and then the next year the thought of the stuff will disgust me.
I'm a strange one. Luckily Hubby has me mostly figured out, but me? Nope. I have not a clue.
We did make and decorate cupcakes last night. That was fun! And we're driven around looking at lights on more than one occasion. We even went to a church program together. So we have done some holiday celebrating with each other.
I just love Christmas so much. I hate when it doesn't turn out the way I want it, the way I planned it. If Hubby wouldn't have lost his job we would both be in AZ right now. Together.
I watched "Elizabethtown" yesterday. It's now one of my fav. movies. I've owned it for the longest time but just realized I hadn't seen it. I also rented "Julie & Julia" from the Redbox thing - cost me five bucks. Never realized how absent minded and procrastinating I am until I started using that stupid Redbox. It was a pretty good movie too. I loved the blogging references.
Alright now that I've written a novel it's time to push the 'Publish Post' button. Thanks Mrs.4444. Oh how I love Fragment Fridays, I feel much better now!! And dare I say it: a little excited to see my family. Hubby's a big boy (well in theory anyway) he can manage :)
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